Expectations Changes
One day someone meets you, takes you for a walk in their thoughts, and loves the way you think. The thing that you’ve done so much to change, adapt, because you felt like you didn’t fit in in some way. And you discover each other’s flaws, and learn to like them, because otherwise you wouldn’t be so good at being yourself.
They discover together that admiration is not love, and that perhaps being admired would not fit into their way of being. Love is giving, and you only understand when you like the other’s flaws, together or apart, you will always root for the other and hurting can be like stepping on a puppy’s paw, a huge cowardice, totally an act without thinking.
A friend once asked me about whether I liked a certain someone. I replied that there is a big difference between liking, being in love and loving. Only those who have or have had a great love know exactly this difference. They say that human beings can love several times in their lives, but it is not a certainty. If people had known that they might have nothing left in their lives, they would certainly have gone back on the stubbornness of their mistakes.
It is the incessant, sometimes exhausting, search for what puts us above the stars. We continue to be childish in many moments, with reciprocity. But not in the way it is presented to us, we want it the way we imagine it, and thus, nothing changes.
But we forget that, if it weren’t different, our emotions wouldn’t surface, our hearts wouldn’t beat stronger. And no matter how much we deny it, no one really wants to be alone. Part of it, our humanity cries out to us, that you are much more than just a service.
It seems that with or without experience, the fear of rejection is active, like a toxic thought that no one invited it to. It bothers us, it means we want it to be when we are available, in our own time. But when we are injured, it was the weather’s fault, the wrong time, a complicated way of being.
If we really wanted to, everything would be simpler. We want to be rescued, or sometimes be the one who saves the world. We tell the world that traveling is the best thing, or not, what I really want is a commitment, and all this nonsense is not enough with nervous synopses, we are fooling ourselves.
It will be? In any case, we run away from ourselves. Would you tell me that I would make you nervous too? Is that person playing with your feelings? One day that person will look at you and say they don’t love you anymore? This means that a day ago her feelings intensified. Was this real?
Just imaginary, everything is in our minds, so the lack of certainty of full reciprocity is distressing and thought-provoking. It is past occasions and our desires that create the most daydreams in our minds, but in life happiness is not always our ideal or what we once had. Seeing reality among our desires, the much suggested term of “realistic dreamer”.
